Tuesday, March 3, 2020

Her Problems

She even did it to herself, made herself exploited to annoy me, so it seems though she says it was just a matter of consequence sometimes.
Wouldn't I say if something big happened in my life?  Just to unravel it and for the experience?
I'm getting in more trouble by the older lady I like not admitting she did it if she did..
They seem to sum up what I say and say it's nothing somehow.
My dad can't get enough of himself, saying this is the older lady I like....
They keep acting like someone else abusing me so I don't fight back.
Does anyone socialize to get it out-
They are like my dad in some ways, nothing matters.

They do say the present matters but not for me.
The older lady I like likes to say sure I'll do anything for you, but take that! at least it seems in some of her abstract extensions..
Just because you found something doesn't *mean* it's not important.

I don't wanna argue, I feel like I succumbed to the teaching profession here.

"All you need is food and drink?"
I am just figuring out problems I already know, you know?
Someone is lashing out on me like she's possessed

Just expect things that aren't okay already really to get worse through this system.
You give me attention but took my favorite new relation away.
They think they are giving me attention, but they are eating me away.
"Oh, I'm just A WALLFLOWER"
What do you want me to do, "lose it" and shut up?
They think they can be mean to me like there's always a reason from my past.
I never said to trash her.
So the older lady in your telling me is not very "interesting" but you all exploited her?
So, Ellen DeGeneres has cornered the older lady I like.
The people monitoring me in private keep believing I'm submitting in how they act... and it's really getting to me.
Goes to show you how useless Baby Boomers can seem to be.
They are having problems holding in angry thoughts at me, but it's affecting how I feel about an older lady I like.
I keep getting mean messages by permission of an older lady I like by certain people, like it's necessary.  They want me not to comfort myself inside and make sense of what I'm already thinking.  Gross Orlando and way to take advantage of me.

I can't start fighting because I'm not the one who decides what you do to me, but I wouldn't be mean.  So, I feel like I'm hanging on a long time.

They made me think an older lady I like isn't worth it (for me I guess) and ignoring my knowledge that she has issues ... like she feels affected more easily than me and does big things socially; she gets "affected" in action, according to her surroundings or mine.  What I was explaining trying to say is like there are things about her, like she, like many, "get" more than me socially.  So, like maybe people wouldn't think the same of her if they didn't know what she was capable of doing to me.  So, like she gets a lot for doing a little, my dad's little sister seems to swear, but that sounds unaware or just for her to get inappropriate stimulation; it's like she was all that in some abstract way and now she doesn't "have" to be.  That's just one example, how affected she gets.  Her husband is younger than her, too, and I think worried about their kids.. and doesn't understand/know what to do or what is wrong or he can't fix it.  Her issue is not in her sensitivity but her need for what's inappropriate in relations in stimulation, things no one else does.

Some people or  someone thinks it's 2nd nature that if I'm interested in her I didn't pass some test and it's a no, but anyone could do the same thing.  It sounds like a flashy move, too, for someone.  They are mean to me in private and think I did something wrong when technically I didn't and they're looking out to see if I do things.  I wish I didn't, but it's not that important if that's what I'm held to.  It's like the older lady I like is forfeiting things.  This is so dorky.. I forget why ... but it's dorky because, well I know it's wrong in and of itself and too serious like doing something when you don't know what to do ... something about making a big deal out of things only to I guess ruin it for me socially in some ways, like what I thought were some of my choice relations.

Sunday, March 1, 2020

I get thrown things I dislike and it's like I'm being tested to post it here if I don't want it.
For your information, it is actually unusual to poke at all the things that make a person happiest, and humans have great expectations.. it seems you all have forgotten in the wake of this.
So, there's been lasting a big break where we anticipate Ellen DeGeneres will want to ruin something, and so we stop it before she can ruin it.  Bad things started to happen, I mean get told...  Well, Ellen DeGeneres doesn't seem to have pressure in that, seems it's done on purpose, some peculiarity of her.  I just don't want it to get much worse and to say she's doing it like anyone else, but they all want to help and funny she supposedly is the reason and started it.
Sometimes, I wonder if I am being asked a serious question when I don't care.  Consequences.  The future.